"And Just Like That..."

 

     And just like that, the year of 2021 is over.  O-V-E-R.  If I was a "betting woman," I would wager my entire 403B savings on the idea that most of us are grateful to not only see another year, but to put these last couple of years behind us.  On the flip side, many people during the "pandemic life" have experienced unimaginable joy.  Engagements, marriages, babies galore and that leaves me wondering..."What is wrong with me?" 

     I am continually blissful about another sunrise and another sunset.  I am relieved and joyful to have a life that will never, EVER be perfect, but it works nonetheless.  However, I am one of those people who will always want more. For too long, I have entrenched myself in routine.  The past two years have given many a comfort in having a routine.  I have been enjoying the moments of peace and quiet.  I have enjoyed being "still."  Now, NOW, I am beyond done with that.  I want to take up the trumpet!  I want to sing Broadway showtunes at the top of lungs in front of my kids at school each and every day until I drive them to do their classwork!

    I want to live without fear without getting "pandemic sick." I understand that the "inevitable" will eventually happen to me and everyone else for that matter but NOT now, not under these conditions.  I have too much to do. We all have much to do.  I say in 2022, we never stop. Let's never stop planning an let us never stop experiencing the joy of our passions.  What most of us need is passion.  I have noticed on social media that some have more than others and you can hardly blame them for moving forward in spite of the pandemic fears looming each and every day.  Our human behaviors have changed permanently I am afraid. I fear that we will never embrace our need for that human connection that we have been so used to before Covid.  Or perhaps that is my own personal fear. 

     Perhaps in 2022, I will cease to be afraid.  Perhaps in 2022, many of us will be less afraid and embrace each other again.  Maybe, just maybe, I will enjoy the sunrise and the sunset even more than I do now.  Both are equally significant as we age and as we plan for more.  More sunrises, more sunsets, give us strength and give us comfort.  We all need comfort. To think otherwise means none of us have learned a blessed thing during this difficutl time.

     And just like that, I am out of ideas for 2021.  I have, like others, put my best foot forward and now it is time to embrace the unknown year of 2022.  Every year is unknown until we start living it.  Once the champagne glasses are empty and ball has dropped, we need to get back to passion.  How about...we get back...to...passion.

     P.S.  "King, Happy New Year husband!"  You are loved more than what makes you comfortable.